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There are so many things going on, actually, they are all small things, small happy things with family(only with my brother) and friends.

My mom is still in the States waiting for my brother's I-20, the thing for international students, and she's also staying longer for my sister. Now I am in charge of my home in Taiwan, in charge with my little brother.

It's funny that I haven't lived under the same roof for long period with my brother for a long time, maybe three years. We used to fight a lot, ha..but this time we are doing great. So, I am glad that I am not hanging out with friends but staying at home with my bro.

Two more weeks, I will be back in LA and stay with Susan. Did I tell you that she's not used to live in that big house? I think I did.

It's weird that I feel good enough for this short return, maybe it's because I haven't felt enough for USA yet. I want to go back and do more things. That doesn't mean I love America more than my hometown, it's just I have dreams over there and I need to make it come true, at least try it.

Do you feel the same thing over there? What do you feel about the return so far, it must be a little bit different than when you first arrived there. I joked about that I would kiss the floor when I had my foot stepped onto Taiwan's ground. I didn't. I need a longer departure.( is that correct?)

Oh well, I don't know where do I miss, here? LA or Chicago? I think I miss LA, when my sister returned from work, and me, bro and his gf and my mom sitting in the family room waiting her to join our "dinner table" in front of TV. Although my dad is still working hard in CHina for the FOUR of us. haha...I need a damn job....

Alright folks, I hope this return will give me strength to achieve my goals and lead me closer to my dreams.

我在San Fransisco 轉機時，寫下了這段文字：

“在機場的一切，都提醒著我的目的地為何。
候機室的人種，模樣，穿著，口音，
還有上飛機後發給我的入境登記表，
在姓名攔下填著（漢字）的地方，
我一筆一劃施力地ㄎㄢ進我的中文姓名，
此刻，
我知道我要前往的地方叫家鄉。”

快要到達台灣時，我又寫：

“When are you going back to your country?"

"Today."

"When do you arrive?"

"Right now."

"How do you feel?"

"What do you think?"

看見那小小的灣, 小小的田，小小的山，
回家了。

後來在入境處找到持有中華民國護照短短排隊的窗口，
將護照交給了海關人員，心中期待他對我說歡迎回國。
他沒有，但是把入境表交還給我說我不需要填寫時，
已經如同雙手張開迎接我回來一樣讓我笑開了嘴。

三毛有十六個年頭是不在台灣的，即使回到台北寓所與家人在一起也感到是客人。
我心中的相似讓我有很深的感觸，卻也告訴自己我很好，我們大家很好，是跟她不同的。
送你一匹馬我看到快要最後了，
文章有時透露出絕望之感，有時又熱情擁抱與愛護生命。三毛，我不會跟您（對不起，電腦沒有女部的您）一樣，因為我們是不同的人，但是您這麼聰明這麼深沈，給了我無限繼續在外地支持我信仰的能力。您那個時代就只出您一個三毛，我這個時代，是否我也能有幸認識一個三毛，與她徹夜長談呢？還是三毛就在每個人自己裡面？

Now it's way too far again. I can never stick to ONE single thing..

Time to eat, with my bro.